& most days I’m still up at 2am because I’ve saved someone, & I just cant sleep after that for a while. It feels almost like you’re some superhero in a way and you should be out there doing more of the same. The dead ones don’t count to your brain, and honestly you can’t be blamed for your fortune any more than you’re paid. It’s your job after all.

& i feel really burnt out after training all these people to do the same. I could do this in my sleep by now. Maybe that’s what’s keeping me awake. I sleep face down in my pillow